I have a few friends who suffer from anxiety and depression and they know they have my support whenever they need it. But they deal with it much differently than I do. They get angry and lash out and say disturbing things. I love my friends of course, but sometimes it's hard to be around them. They want to bring me into their personal issues I feel a little too much and I can't handle all of it even though I wish I could for them. Recently it's been getting worse and it makes me really anxious when I'm around easily angered people. I don't talk much and listening to my friends talk so awfully about each other to me makes me quieter and more exhausted. To make matters worse I've been trying really hard to get over a massive depressive state I've been in for the past few weeks (and they know that but their tunnel vision gets pretty intense when they're overwhelmed with their own issues) and I feel like if I hang around them too much I'll be dragged back down again. It feels cruel to say that but I've been making some good progress and I'm so scared of crashing again. It gets harder and harder to handle them. Is it heartless to want to take a break from them? I can't shoulder everything and feel like I'm responsible for their actions. What should I do...
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