So I just came from my visit with the doc. Again she and my T are both suspecting bipolar. However she says she isn't 100% sold yet because I've not experienced staying up for days at a time and I'm not sure wether I've been dangerously happy. So for now she has prescribed the antidepressant Zoloft for my depression and anxiety and as a tester to see if it will throw me into mania. I guess this is good. I just want to know what's going on with me. I don't see my happy states as bad. I do buy things impulsively when I'm obsessing or have ideas. I've also experienced hyper religiosity and hyper sexuality doing things I wouldn't date do now. I'm just so confused. I just want to be better. I guess we'll have to see what happens with this medicine.