Soccer mom, you described my feelings exactly, especially "wanting to take it all in." I used to want to BE my T. Or wanted to sit on her lap and put my arms around her. The analogy she liked best was telling her I wanted to be a baby kangeroo and live in her pouch! The touching is something I really do have with her, so some of those other yearnings are gone. They can be triggered by how she looks, though, which was the theme of my thread.

Yeah, the eye contact is awesome but scary. I keep telling myself I'm going to have eye contact with friends and family, but it's such a habit not to, that I don't do it. Not even with my H.