Oh catlover, I am so sorry you went through all that and your husband is not being supportive. Unfortunately, when I developed post traumatic stress and ended up just not being able to function, I wound up in a psych ward and my family was really "mean" to me, especially my older sister. I was pretty much yelled at and at the same time I had the PTSD shakes/chills, and I did not know why I was struggling or what post traumatic stess was. Unfortunately the attending psychiatrist failed to recognize the clear red flags too. It is very clear when reading my records, hard to look at now knowing, and seeing him totally miss these very obvious red flags that mean "trauma patient". That I have to actually have "therapy for bad therapy".

If you are struggling to attend a group like this, you need to make sure you talk about it in your private therapy.

You also need to learn how to work through these challenging attacks so you can function better at work. It definitely is a slow learning/healing process. You also deserve to have your husband be educated on how he can be more supportive with you.
That is something that really lacked with my own family, and that definitely made it so much harder for me to deal with something I honestly did not understand but was often very crippled by.

I wish from the very start I had more support, I really was treated badly for something I could not help.

((Hugs))
OE