Hi Bonnie, well great support from some great members up there!!!
So I'll just say that maybe you need to accept that this is possibly going to feel real hard right now........I mean your T is going away, you're not sure of her return time.......you've had that to think about and now it's going to be happening.......you're going to be lacking the reassurance of knowing she's there IF..........
So if you're finding it hard........that's understandable, if you're feeling "weak" that's understandable.........it doesn't however mean that you're failing, not at all, it just means that you're having to cope with just a little more, things might take a little longer to help you, you might have to keep trying different/more things to help, things might not be quite as effective as they were before. And that doesn't need to mean that things can't gradually get better.
And you know what, while your T's gone, as you're gradually getting used to/overcoming that......we can be your safety net (or one of them!!) if you want
AND Bonnie (!!!), I think I know you well enough to say that you ARE NOT a coward in any shape or form, OK????!!!!! So that confusion.........cleared up, right???!!!
And just........keep on talking when you need to
Alison