coming to terms with having this disorder is...
irritating. i feel like it's crippling, why do i have to have this and then i can never fully recover? why do i have to deal with this? i feel like all of my "mental problems" are environmental. and so i have this grudge. it isn't my fault, and you know what? i don't want to play the blame game. i just don't understand why some humans are born with everything and then others are born with nothing and it's frustrating to me. everyone wants equality but i feel like that is just a joke. i mean come on, let's be real. no one is equal.

i don't know what i'm talking about or what this is on about. i'm done, i guess.
this is me ending a thought process.