Hi Born2Fly, and you shouldn't be responsible for trying to hold the mess together
And even without the depression, etc..........you wouldn't want to be stuck in the middle of all that I'm guessing. So your responsibilities with/towards yourself now, right?!! And got to commend you on recognizing that!!!
I am so sorry your church turned their back on you, particularly during such a hard time in your life though. That's...........!!!
But you know that already anyway, right??! Although what I can say is that there are plenty of people on here who have said that their church/es have been a big help during difficult times.........so maybe try not to let that experience shake the faith you had and try to let another church/the people in it into your life??? Just a thought..........

Alison