Sounds like you stuck it out better than most. I know I could not have pulled all that off when in the throws of a relapse. I wouldn't feel like a wimp. If fact it makes you tougher than any non-depressed person. Just for 10 minutes I would love for some non-Depression sufferers to plop my brain in their head. Ha! They would be on the floor begging for their Mommy in 2 minutes.