Hi mixtape, I am so sorry you were so low you were suicidal, I know that state of mind intimately myself. Yes, talking about a trauma/traumas can be very exhausting, yet while I do get exhausted, I do sleep too. I can relate to passing out too.

It "can" make it worse for a while, depending on what you are discussing. You need to mourn the trauma, and it takes a great deal of effort to put whatever is there into words too. However, it isn't "just" all about talking it out, it is also getting "input" too, as you need to feed "in" helpful information that you can find a way to put in some productive messages/language/ideas/knowledge where you can resolve whatever you are missing so you can finally have some personal forgiveness and closure too. Validations are also very important because with any trauma the brain is in a state of "I can't believe this happened". Self blame can become overwhelming, and challenging emotions too can become overwhelming.

Unfortunately, yes, many people "friends and family" can become very dismissive, angry, and invalidating. I had experienced that myself, and because I know first hand how bad I was and what would have helped instead, I get angry about the "lack of caring" that at the time I had really needed.

People can get dismissive and even angry when they don't "know" how to actually sit and comfort someone who is very emotionally challenged. A caring "hug" and taking one's hand and rubbing gently up and down an emotionally challenged individuals arm can provide some "very" calming oxytocin, that can be so calming it is like a magical healer. That is now why people get "dogs that are meant as therapy dogs". Petting an animal, a dog or cat or even a horse can be so healing for someone who struggles with PTSD, did you know that?

If I were to design my own PTSD healing place, I would have that kind of soothing comforting touching take place, I would also have animals around as well.

It sounds like you are in the first stage of the PTSD challenge, you need to be very patient with this stage, yes I is definitely challenging, but you can get past this stage and make some gains on your healing.

((Caring Hugs))
OE