If any of you remember, I was pretty manic a little over a month ago, but fell into a pretty bad depression. Got back into SIing, suicidal thoughts, and just no energy to function properly. Well, my friend forced me to prom and so I had to stop SIing for a week so that my arm who's look decent in a dress. Well, during the week I got really bad with suicidal thoughts and felt super stressed. Went to prom which was alright, and then afterwards went to a dance club and slept over at my friend's house. Got home around 4 am, and slept until 7 and then I was ready to go. Once my friends woke up, we went to get breakfast and I went home around 12. Passed out for two hours, got up and did a ton of homework. Today, I was in such a good mood and did even more homework, and now I'm ahead in two of my classes, vacuumed my house, and trained my dog to pick up a light bulb and a dime! I can't wait for another girls' night out, and wish I could do more homework, haha.

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The only problem is that I am getting thoughts that kind of go like this:

"Man, this is great time to die since I am so happy!"

"That plan sure sounds good right now. I could be free forever!"
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I don't know what is going on with my mind...