Are we real ? That is something I have always asked myself. I've settled for the answer of "I don't think i'll ever really know" and tried to leave it at that. Otherwise my head feels like it's been pushed through a clothes mangle several times and spun around.

I know how it feels to be completely disconnected from everything - its not pleasant, and I hope you can find peace within yourself at times.
This is not an easy road we travel down, but even in the most violent of storms, there will always be calm, no matter how short.

Hopefully you will one day stumble into something that helps more than you could ever imagine. I was lucky enough to have that in my darkest days. Alas, it would seem I am one of the fortunate ones.

There is always hope. Finding it is the challenge we all face.