Ceasing communication is done. I can't afford to reach out even for the sake of one of the girls (who lost their mother to bone cancer 5 months ago suddenly and them only being 9 years old). I stupidly thought maybe my ex could be an adult and be okay for the sake of the children who have been through so much in the past two years but I know this is not going to happen.

Oddly enough I would expect me to be in the depths of despair right now but im not. It feels like more of a relief even though I'm embarrassed I had to notify my work.

Just odd that it went from saturday her saying let's say hello at work and be cool because she feels so awkward and let's be friends but not right now to threatening my career. I don't feel I am going through a manic phase nor do I feel depressed. It's more like, "Okay whatever. But if you screw with my career I will have to be proactive." I feel like I should be more depressed. And I feel blindsided by her switching from being the one to actually being nice after months to switching to "im telling on you". So, so bizarre.