Dear T,

Our last session was difficult and emotional for me. We are talking about flashbacks, intrusive thoughts and attachments again. They are sensitive, personal topics. I felt a little afraid of what you would think.

I brought attachments up because the topic confuses me. I want to make sure we are thinking alike...so I feel safe when I reveal things to you.

I asked you things like:

"*Are attachments in therapy normal?
*Is it usual for patients to form attachment to their therapists?
*How does attachment help in therapy?
*Are you comfortable with a patient's attachment/bond feelings in therapy?
*Would you rather I try to reel in some of my attachment feelings?
I fear attachment because it has hurt me horribly in the past." etc.

At the end of Friday's session, I told you that- back when PrevT treated me, I had a difficult time falling asleep at night. I had asked her if it was ok for me to imagine myself safe in one of her bedrooms...to help me go to sleep.

You asked me if I still do that now?

I teared up a little....waiting for your rejection when I answered:

"Well, I have been trying to imagine I am in one your bedrooms lately.....is that ok?" Then I broke down.

Then you said something I did not expect,

"Make it the prettiest and safest room you can imagine."