Irrational thinking and irrational reactions.

Being afraid of hurting yourself and those around you.

Hiding things, pretending, avoiding the subject.

Having to medicate yourself just to do things that you know that you had no problem doing in the past.

Being unable to enjoy the things that you used to.

Having to even consider the decision of becoming a zombie to get your voices and rushing thoughts under control.

Knowing that those around you don't actually understand.