another devastating morning panic attack

and what goes in my mind is..

should i quite my current job, its too much psychical work for me..i didn't sign up for this..

but if i quite..what will i think of myself and what other people and family members will think of me

i never was a good father or husband or son to start with..i failed a lot in my life..this is a new job for me..i moved away from everything and everyone to clear my mind and start over..but the new job is too much..i have to lift boxes all day..i am not built for that..its too much for me

my father tells to come back..start a local business together, he is sick he says..no one to look after him but he has my sister by his side..is he lying to me? I've never felt that he needed me before..or maybe he does?

my son from my divorced wife is coming this summer to the place i left..should i go back or stay and endure? what kind of father will i be to him

i just don't know

anyone help me figure things out?