Hi I haven't been in here for a while so some of you may not remember me.
I am manic depressive, Adult ADD and a brain injury from a stroke.
I can't do the things I used to and it takes a longtime for me to get things done. I don't work outside the home, but I am doing DIY projects on our house.
My wife who I've been married to for 25 years this year is a wonderful women with a good heart but she has grown very bitter with me. I don't think she loves me anymore. We have two daugthers 14 & 10 who she loves very much and are the joy of our lives. She shows love toward my daugthers, tells them she loves them but doesn't ever show me any affection, but we do have sex once in a while.
Four years ago while in mania I miss spent alot of money and she can't forgive me for it and is constantly holding it over my head. I feel very sorry for this and have told her my regrets many times over. I have been through some job losses, a failed attempt to move out of state for a very good job and send for my family later, but then had to come back home and try to rebuild. It has been trouble ever since and it's a 1 1/2 later.
I'm on disability and she has a hard time with the fact I can't take care of the family. In general she holds a grudge and doesn't easily forgive but that's always been that way.
She has always had to vent her feelings on me and thats ok to a point but she has almost gotten to the point she can't stand the sight of me. She has told me looking at me makes mad and reminds her of what I did (the $) The girls for the most part to live normal lives but I just can't take her anymore. I am on meds and we both have seperate therispt's. It looks like we are heading for divorce. I love her very much.
I don't know what to do....