Dear t,

I nearly died during labour. I'm so lucky I was at the hospital and not a birthing centre as I needed a blood transfusion after loosing 2500mls. I told you this by email like you had asked me to once I'd given birth.

You admitted the experience sounded harrowing and that you were sure my family would support me.... You KNOW my family! You know they aren't able to help me with my experience. It felt like you were passing the buck. I'm blessed to be well, but the birth still disturbs me. I honestly think I need counselling to get over it and yet we haven't oficially terminated. You said I can visit you with the baby for one last session. I will e seeking someone else now.