Thank you every one! I appreciate all the support deeply. I'll be back soon and hopefully will be feeling much better. I believe, or want to believe that with an added anti depressant and anxiety med things will ease up.

I'm determined to make this house everything she couldn't. I'm already half way there just because it's not trashed, I'm not screaming at the top of my lungs every hour of the day and I'm not bringing men home.

All that's left is to deal with the trigger that this house has become.