T is finally back this week after being gone for several weeks, and now I don't want to see her. What is up with that?! I have needed her so badly during this break. My life has been falling apart and I have been a wreck and desperately needing to see her; counting the days until her return. But now that the time is approaching, I have a nervous feeling and a dread in the pit of my stomach like I just want to stay away. I can't explain it. Has anyone else experienced this before? am I trying to protect myself? The only explanation I can come up with is that I've been trying to protect myself for the last several weeks with her being gone, and now I'm trying to stay in that mode of not needing her, Like seeing her again will bring back that feeling of dependency that I've been trying so hard to not have this past period of her being away.