So, my bf... well ex bf.. I just dont know what to do.. i have never been that in love of someone and wanting to marry someone, i mean im scared of marriage (parents divorced), so when we decided to get married (dec 2015) i just couldnt believe my life was finally getting in place, he has his imperfections but i loved them, and also he treated me like i finally deserved someone to treat me, he even opened my door every time we went in the car, it was great.. then i get pregnant... it was a shock for both of us.. we wanted to wait, we even thought of not having the baby and to wait 2 more years, but i just couldnt sleep with that so when i was 7 months preg.. he left... without explanations and by phone! He told me he needed space caz i was calling him a lot... i agree i did that, i was crazy on hormones, but.. i just wanted to not feel alone caz he had to work more and we just didnt see each other much, so i just wanted to talk to him at least 2 times a day, but i just got desperate, caz he wouldnt tell me or answer me...

Anyways, now the bby ir born, he hasnt been around, he didnt go to the hospital at all.. something im not sure how can i forget.. for 2 weeks we were doing better, we talked for like 2 hours on the phone, it looked like i could see the light and that we wer gonna fix it, but since of my depression i just wanted him to hug me and we got carried away and kissed and stuff so i think he got scared the 2nd tims and now he doesnt want to answer me or talk to me at all. I guess its true i tempted him a little, i just want everything to go back to how it was.. i wish he would go with me to couples therapy but i dont even know how to ask that.. and now i have to debate on if i should go to child support, caz he hasnt helped me at all! But what i really think is that if i take him to child support, we will never get back together, and i dont want that..

I just dont know what to do...

Here is a little more of my backstory.. (sorry its a little long!)

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