Oh no! It makes me feel sad you're still having those suicidal thoughts.

I won't lie. I had them the other night when I had my paranoia freak out. I even dumped all of my pills out and was REALLY considering taking them because I was so scared. Sometimes I feel like I can't handle the thought of being this way the rest of my life. Especially since it's just gotten worse the older I get.

We just have to remain strong, even if it's hard. And remember that there are people who love us, and it would just break them if we were to suicide.

I hope you feel better soon.