Lol! No, I would do it but I can't bc I'm not religious.
And do you think this kind of things are in control of someone else appart than you and your friend.

What I'm very worried is for a thing. Your happiness can't depend on the outside or that things you wish happen or no. We can't live expecting good things happen and fix our lives. You have to take part in your life, taking decissions...that's why I asked you if the fear you felt for doing things like approching to your friend was very frequent.