Oh catlover, I am so sorry you are stessing so much you get sick like that. Maybe you should see if there is a medication you can take to help you stay calm, instead of having these panic attacks. Be patient with yourself ok? PTSD is not cake walk, I have struggled a great deal myself. Maybe see how you are in the morning, if not up to it, then don't go, don't be hard on yourself.

((Hugs))