You are still trying to get her to say you are a horrible person. She's not going to do it, Granite, because it isn't reality. You FEEL that way about yourself, but that doesn't make those feelings actually reality. They are your internal reality; she gets that. But she isn't going to validate those feelings as actual reality. She's working to help you see outside your self-talk.

I can remember telling my T how horrible my life was, etc. He kept working to challenge that thinking by helping me see that in reality, while my life had many, many challenges, it wasn't nearly the horribleness I had working in my head. Over time I learned to do that for myself, but it took years of persistence and practice to get there.

It is wonderful that you were able to stay and continue to communicate with her. It is hard work, but you are doing it.