My mom died in February and I'm having a hard time with it. I feel so alone and empty. I'm not married, have no kids, and my only true friend is 1200 miles away and we speak when we can but she is busy a lot.

I only have my T. She was great when I was away from therapy at the funeral, had to fly back home etc. she sent me an email everyday. Was really caring.

Now she says I'm "wallowing" in my misery. I'm depressed.

I been thinking it would be so easy to just take the bottle of my sleeping pills and be done. I know I would never have the nerve to do it but I think about it. I'm afraid if I tell my T she will tell my pdoc and they will put me in the hospital. It's only thoughts. I don't have the intentions. I don't want to go to the hospital. Should I tell my T or not? If I tell her, do they put you in the hospital for thoughts. I live in the U.S. Thanks!