I wish I had some useful info, but the best I have is that I can really relate to wanting to run hard and fast and far...
I, too, have yet to act on that impulse.
The only thing that has brought me any relief so far has been finding good therapists... Oddly enough, the best ones were totally found by chance. One was a group T I was refferred to (and later dumped onto) by a T I had been working with. The other 3 were all affiliated with community agencies (two were with a county-funded sexual assault crisis center)...
Hope you can find some relief from all this...