I have the same general diagnosis and am struggling with the same thing......just posted the same sort of thread a few minutes ago. Cosmic.

I have a stressful job I don't like. I am in the process of self-destructing like I have in the past.

I am searching for answers as well. I can't ride the employment ups and downs anymore and it is wearing me out.

However, people like us are often seeking new challenges. I am BORED at my job and feel like I get dumber by the hour. I am considering taking it upon myself to either lower the priority I self-assign my job or to seek out new challenges where I work. I do a good job but people sense I am annoyed and bored beyond belief. What I am not waiting on is any help or guidance from management.