I'm not "losing time" more... i'm just losing memory of what I'm supposed to be doing. I missed two classes because I had no idea I was even in them :/ Course, I'm supposed to let Pnurse know if "anything else happens", but now I'm afraid to - I had no idea she could control so much of my life.... and now that that IS known, others are acting out because "I'm not allowed to tell anymore" because of that very control Pnurse now has.
That's not even what I was going to post.... I have no idea what I was going to post when I came in here originally. or maybe it was? I have no idea. I hope I didn't have more than one thing to do today, because I sure don't remember it if I did. I'm kinda in an "oh well!" point I guess. I hope I know what I'm doing tomorrow LOL :/
I don't even want to keep my appointments with my providers because I don't know what to tell them anymore and they don't know what to do with "me". In fact, my last 2 providers (neurologist and physical therapist), I didn't tell them I'm DID. Just that I have a dissociative disorder and a long trauma history. It gets too confusing. Tho I almost swapped out today with the PT but she could see the fear in my eyes and talked me through what would have been a panic attack/swap out/meltdown. Good to have someone on my side. The neuro, not so much. I'm not planning on telling him since I think he'd just think i'm nuts. :P