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Originally Posted by lolagrace
I highly doubt your therapist thinks, much less said, that you live a charmed life. You say you are horrible; your T is asking you to attempt to see things not so quite in those black and white terms.
It just struck me: you see yourself as ALL horrible--in very black and white terms--no possibility of gray area; you are trying to get your T to think about you in black and white when she sees you in all sorts of shades and is hoping you can recognize that within yourself.
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chris you do make me think a lot and as usual I appreciate your straight forward point of view. no she didn't say I live a charmed life . those words were mine and how some family members see me . I know my T was trying to point out that I was ok. that my life isn't falling apart .it is hard for me to see because I know what is going on in my head . she says it is just how I am perceiving things.
I know that she will never see me as horrible as I see who I am and that scares me . how can she help me if she doesn't see it . she asked me to give an example of something that happened with my son that made me a horrible mother . I gave her a very mild example because I am so ashamed of how I feel. my son had called because he had a flat tire far away from home . I stressed so much it was out of control . I was furious about it .way beyond what was acceptable . my T asked why it was such a big deal. that was my point .I shouldn't have reacted like this . im just useless as a mother. this makes me not want to deal any more