This is strange, I'm normally a very private person...but I guess at some point I should share...I am a 29 Years old, not married, living with my two dogs, Doberman and Great Dane.. I have my own business but pretty much up to my ears in debt...so even though, I am doing well financially, it isnt enough to upkeep my life so I constantly find myself in financial trouble.. I have been diagnosed around 3 Years ago and always knew I was way different than anyone else I knew...I believed and still believe I was meant for and destined to save the world...sounds stupid apparently but, I have very good reason to believe that..

My problem in my life came when I was admitted to a hospital for a Manic Episode and again later on for a Depressive episode in which I attempted suicide..I have tried that a lot in my life, but no one knew, this time, my father apparently found me after I had swallowed all my meds I had in stock knowing that a massive supply of Seroquel would most likely do the job...

Anyway, I am getting off topic. I have always been a positive and strong, charming person by heart but sometimes my mind doesnt agree. I have done well in my life from what I can recall but lost everything as quickly as I had gained it.

The last few weeks I have been up and down like crazy and found myself to be particularly low and hopeless but with tons of energy and then suddenly happy the last two days.. Knowing my past when I get like this, I am scared and to tell you the truth, I only joined because I feel I needed to vent.. I am seriously not someone who talks about my emotions because frankly it sometimes feels embarrassing because of all the cliche'd movies we have seen of people sitting in a room staring at the subject and him turning around and saying: 'Hi, I am Bruce" and everyone goes: "Hi Bruce" - But regarding, Hi, I am Bruce...oddly, my name is Bruce..he he

I am really here to say hi to all and to have myself acknowledged and read other's posts. Please people, don't welcome me and say: "Don't worry, your not alone" because at the end, it is the thing I despise when people have told me that before. I am alone right now, at my computer and besides, telling someone that with an immense amount of emotions is definitely not going to help, it only makes me feel like some unique club that you are obviously not a part of. And maybe not today for me but a lot of the times, it is an amazingly, awesomely, fun and happy place...

Welcome all and thanks if you read my post!!