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Old Apr 22, 2015, 10:32 AM
Capriciousness Capriciousness is offline
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Originally Posted by Homeira View Post
Thank you for expressing so well what I used to go through. For several years I had that fear, and it was driving me crazy. But I have lived with BP for five years now (at least that was when I was diagnosed), and slowly I have gotten that fear under control. I know that it is not going to kill me, and I know that it is help out there if things get really bad. I guess it is about getting to know how to cope with my BP. But I recognize myself completely in what you wrote. It used to be like that...
Here's the thing. I do know that whatever happens I will make it through. I choose to have that faith and that hope. And I believe that faith and hope are the opposite of fear.

That said

I just don't want to have to go through it again.

Endure a "big one" or even a small one again. I have done it. I can do it again. I am really good at managing it (my pdoc says and I agree). I am completely committed to my health and wellness.

I just don't want to feel like that ever again and it sucks that I might