I know what you mean. Sometimes it feels like a roller coaster and it gets all confusing and frustrating. As you work through T, it will become more manageable, at least that's what I experience. I kind a found a way for it to all work.
And then the upsets come and throws everything intoa st9ir again.
I guess tha'ts why we all have each other.
SBD
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