I've had several hospitalizations for mixed and depressive episodes.

I've noticed (even prior to being dx in 2012) that my cognitive functioning and anxiety have increased.

My last hospitalization was in Jan? I think for a major depressive episode.
Since then, I've noticed a significant decline in my cognitive functioning.

I'm due to see my pdoc on Monday, so I will bring this up, but I'm scared that he will say it's time to get back to work. I don't feel like I have the cognitive ability to go back to work. My brain is mush most of the time.

My husband is also under the impression that going back to work will improve my cognitive abilities.

So, what are your thoughts? I'm scared to death of going back to work. I had a mid-stress job that paid fairly well. I have this fear that I won't do well after being back at work and this may bring on another depressive episode (or I'll get fired).

EDIT: I've also changed jobs quite a bit in the last few years. The longest I've been at a job has been 4 years.

Options: Go back to work and deal with it
Apply for semi-permanent disability (I've read the cognitive functioning can return to almost like it was in approx 2 years, prior to having these difficulties) for a year or so and see how I am then.
Get a job that requires less cognitive abilities. (Which would likely pay equivalent to what I would get on disability.

WWYD? Help please!!