Welcome to PC...

You will find much support here, the people are wonderful.

I'm sorry that you are having a tough time and hurting right now.
Having an longterm ED myself, I worry when you say that you are binging and vomiting, For me, it has led to lots of health problems and in the end has led to more problems without solving anything.

People come in all sizes and shapes. Sometimes it just takes time to find the right person.