While manic I cheated on my husband idk why I didn't it and I'm still like at that point where I didn't think its wrong but I know it's wrong I need help I mean he hasn't been nice to me for along time and threatens divorce and I just couldn't help it and I was on full mania and felt promiscuous idk I thought I loved my husband but truth is I don't know if I do he is on all kinds of drugs I told my husband I wanted a divorce and I cheated I messed up you know it's hard to control myself I know a lot of it had to do with my bipolar it sucks we have a son but I don't think he should have two parents that argue all the time and fight all the time where it gets bad especially when I'm manic I just don't know what to do I know I'll always be manic I shouldnt have done that I should be alone I think it's the best but I woke up today and my husband dropped off my son at his friends so I'm alone I iust cheated on my husband I just feel awful I am sorry when it really kicks in what I did idk how I'm gonna handle it and I have work today my life is not a good one I'll always be bipolar and the zoolfot and seroquel aren't working for me