Hi Pete77

It is nice to meet you and you have a very interesting story to me. By the way, you are good at details so let that be a positive thing for you to start. Some of the nuisances that you speak of are just that nuisances and some of what you explain can be normal. However as I was reading, and I am not a mental health professional, it sounds similar to either a mood disorder or the fact that you may be lacking dopamine. Hear me out here. I wake up in a bad mood every morning. I have trouble with people who are not courteous and I am impatient. I am also impulsive but as an adult I have had to temper all of these things. I was surprised by a diagnosis of ADHD a year ago. I am not saying that you have this (as ADD or ADHD starts in childhood). I also would have some mild problems with anger and irritability. I had a hunch that I was deficient in dopamine because I had no interest in things or in socializing. I also wanted to isolate as I cannot tolerate too much stimuli around me. SO...this brings me back to the low dopamine. I found out that I had low levels of dopamine. The doctors kept throwing serotonin drugs at me and it seemed as though they never helped what we thought was bipolar....I was misdiagnosed and no wonder what meds that they gave me they didn't work. I am only throwing this out so you can discuss this with your doctor. I really picked up on your lack of motivation and feelings of impatience. I don't know if I am on the right track for you but if you have tried medication in the past or if you are on any now, note if you got any help from them so you can tell your doctor. I really hope that you get this sorted out.

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