If you have the means and the thoughts, even if you don't have intentions, I would consider getting your sleeping tablets out of the house.

My T is aware of my thoughts that I get from time to time and I trust my T not to act over the top with me - I guess that must mean that my T trusts me too.

I also think your T is not being very compassionate in saying your are "wallowing in misery".

Take care - Soup