Thanks so much everyone for your thoughtful replies....

(it does get tiring trying to censor everything and not exactly therapeutic either (as I found in therapy, I guess the "worst" of me came out sometimes (as surely its supposed to, if there is any trust at all? If we only show our T what we perceive to be our "good" aspects then wth is the point of seeing a T?? but I know even "that person" didn't deserve that crap...)