I don't know if I have bipolar. I don't really know what I have. But I do know that after my first episode of depression I thought I wouldn't be able to handle having another one because it was so horrible, but I've had a few since that first one and managed to get through it.

Right now I'm afraid I'm going to have another psychotic episode. I mean, it really freaks me out. I don't know if I'd be able to handle that again.

But, as in the first paragraph I wrote, if I have another one, I'm sure I'll get through it, and be okay. (Well, kind of okay anyway.)

So, yeah, I'm scared.