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Originally Posted by Capriciousness
Here's the thing. I do know that whatever happens I will make it through. I choose to have that faith and that hope. And I believe that faith and hope are the opposite of fear.
That said
I just don't want to have to go through it again.
Endure a "big one" or even a small one again. I have done it. I can do it again. I am really good at managing it (my pdoc says and I agree). I am completely committed to my health and wellness.
I just don't want to feel like that ever again and it sucks that I might
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I see what you mean. I seriously don`t want to go through the ups and downs. Six months ago I was rationalizing why it would make more sense for me not to live anymore. I wasn`t suicidal, but just so tired of the ups and downs. But I don`t have that fear anymore. I`m more like, "if it comes it comes, to hell with it, I don`t care, I`ll get through this one also". But if asked again in another six months, I might give another answer. It`s just hard, hard, hard to go through, and why the f... me, why the f... us??
