Oh, I care a whole lot for many different people. I even still love my husband no matter how hard he and I both have tried to make me stop. LOL Yeah, the same guy I was split from when "that thing" took place. We're back together but he flat refuses to tell me he loves me. If I tell him I love him, what I get is "It's understandable!" So... I don't tell him very much, unless it slips out. It's tough loving someone when you have to keep a rein on it, ya know? But for me, it's better that way. When things go wrong, I don't fall apart.

There's only five people that I don't hold my love back from. Those are my youngest son and four of my grandkids. The other four I never see or communicate with so... It always blows me away when my grandkids show their affection for me, especially the two five yr olds, one a girl and the other a boy; cousins. They sit on my lap or next to me, the boy holds my hand all the time and with his other hand he either rubs my arm or pats my face ever so gently. My granddaughter is more active, but if she goes past me, she stops to hug and kiss me and tell me she loves me. Sometimes, she stops what she's doing, acts alarmed and says "It's been too long since I told my "Bela" I love her!!" She comes over and doses me really good with her baby love then goes back to what she was doing. LOL I can't put it into words how that makes me feel. It's the closest that I could come to Heaven on this earth, ya know? Real "romantic love" has been just beyond my reach except for the first eight or nine months that hubby and I were married. I was soooo "in love"!!

"It's better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all." There was a time I couldn't say that.