I think Rose's suggestions and advice are really good. It's nice to say "just take at as prescribed or check yourself into rehab" but it's more complicated than that. You're not THAT deep into it yet, but you could easily slip and turn to street drugs to supplement and that's not a path you want to go down. I think rehab would largely be a waste of time for you, as the problem is that you're not on the right medications/therapy to begin with. That's probably why you're so miserable. That and depressions can just last a long long time, as I'm sure you know. Best of luck to you in whatever you choose to do. I hope you get some relief soon (and not through suicide!!!)