Thanks everyone for your replies and support. One week away from our actual chat about attachment/tranference. I felt better after reading your example and experiences. My biggest fear is that he will reject me somehow and that instead of accepting my fears he may suggest I stop therapy. To be honest, I'm not ready to stop and fear the day I will no longer have his support or help. He says he will be there for when I need him. I'm afraid my pride or shame will not allow me to reach out again for help from him or anyone else! Wish me luck, I love him and its not the erotic kind for sure. It's the I never had anyone care or listen to me kind! The I don't deserve his help but need it kind. God help me, i'm a mess I sound like a child who needs a caring parent.