I know it's SUPPOSED to get better, it's SUPPOSED to be cyclical but it has now been officially 3 years since I lost my mind and I have been an extremely unstable, constantly unsettled mess since. I really believed the bright light was shining ahead. I really thought I was regaling my sanity, perhaps for the long term. Now I'm not so sure and it both frustrates the hell out of me and makes me feel incredibly hopeless. I am blind. I am lost. I can only hear lies. I have exhausted every help I know. I just feel like giving up. Again.