I plan on being single for 3 years and see how much progress I make. As of being halfway into my final year. I say I've made huge progress. I've lost weight, I learned to cherish who love me and get rid of negative people faster. Becoming self reliant and no longer self hating without a person present to cling to.

I dated 6 people back to back. I never dated someone I was too crazy over. It was like a fad almost and realizing maybe all of them might be like this even the person who may end up staying the longest with me. I had no chance at love. Rather I let that get to me, because young people care too much on it or like many of them care less about it. I chose the badwagon on caring less for my mental health. I'm proud of myself for figuring out what's most important to me and be confident in me doing something. Not worrying about ever say whose going to date me. I started this account when my last ex broke up with me suddenly.

It was such a hard year grieving and them her beating me after being intimate one last time put a very sour note in my relationships. Having to recover from the damage I'm so proud of myself I can't even begin. As a guy this was hell and a hell of a road to challenge many friends who have been much more available and dated much more than me did what I didn't do. I didn't seek I did more time doing my best to be incognito. I wasn't ready and they weren't they jumped relationship to relationship. I don't want to nor think of relationships nor women like that. It's not a bad thing necessarily but I felt I needed a heart to heart person I feel confident and happy and share it with her. That I finally be with my dream girl not in my head from childhood and teenage mind but in my adult mind my grown man mind. Someone who has my heart makes the little things feel so good and someone who doesn't cease to impress me on anything. Good and bad times she makes me smile more than anyone else.
That's what I want and need so badly I am working to be perfect for her when she finds me.