Thank you for all the support everyone. It is extremely difficult for me lately. Somehow I'm still doing well in college and graduating in time. It's no small task for anyone, but doing it with Bipolar is even harder.

I spoke with my therapist. She's rough sometimes. I have problems with anxiety a lot lately and paranoia and sometimes hearing things. She didn't know what to say. And for a long time I didn't drink and then when I did she told me it was a stupid choice. She believes I'm overthinking what's wrong with me. I even mentioned inpatient to her and she said it's not necessary, but if I wanted to I could check myself in. That is such a life interruption though. I do not have support in that either. I just get told over and over I don't need it. Well I'm not sure anyone actually realizes how unwell I am. It's like I'm meant to ignore it and continue to suffer. Once a week therapy isn't cutting it and not a whole lot has helped in there either. I do feel rather hopeless.

Anyway, the fact you are all here and supportive really means a lot. You all understand and validate my feelings. It's nice to have that.

I need to look into a new therapist and psychiatrist soon because I won't have my current one soon. That's going to be a process for sure.

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