This was the T I saw two days ago who was super eager...I wasn't so sure about working with her after the consult, so I emailed her to say thanks for her time and I really appreciated the consult, but I have one more consult scheduled for next week and I will email her after that if I want to book a session. She replied back: It was so nice meeting you. I'd really like to work with you but I understand your reasons for shopping around. It's my policy to accept payment at the time of the session, so I'm attaching an invoice for administrative purposes. Payment can be made through an Interac transfer or by cheque.

I'm confused. The consult was supposed to be free. It was also supposed to be half an hour, and she ran forty minutes over that and was late for her next client (but this was because she kept asking me about my brother who has Aspergers out of her own interest since she used to work with autistic kids rather than for any therapeutic purpose). It feels a bit like she's annoyed that I might not have booked a session with her (and I definitely won't now!) so she's charging me for a free consult. Or perhaps I may have misunderstood and the consult wasn't actually free? But she didn't actually mention payment to me during the consult. Either way, I feel confused about this...and guilty for not wanting to work with her when it seems like she really wants to work with me. And it was really a pain to ask my dad to write her a cheque for $110...he was not too happy with me.

I miss my current T unbearably right now. All of these consults makes me just want to stay with her and never leave...and I know I'm seeing her in two days, but I miss her SO much, and I don't usually feel so strongly like this about her...ugh...