Thanks for sharing your story, Numbed, it's a big step.

I think that if you are considering the possibility that you might have an eating disorder, it is definitely worth a closer look. Counsellors and doctors can help you with some tools to assess yourself; you can probably also find some online. There are quizzes and stuff you can also take, which can be helpful, depending on where you source them from.

I think one of the dangers of classifying eating disorders is that most people assume if they fall outside the realm of 'strictly' anorexic or bulimic, then they don't have an actual eating disorder. Over the years the spectrum of diagnoses continues to change as more understanding develops around disordered eating.

Basically, if it's causing you distress, then it's a problem to you. This forum is always here, and if you decide that you want to find out more or perhaps look at different forms of treatment (should you discern that you have an unhealthy relationship with food and eating that you want to address), perhaps seeking out the help of a medical and/or mental health professional would be a good course of action.

I, too, am not a health professional, so I can't offer any diagnosis or anything. This is simply my opinion informed by years of my own experience and investigation. I wish you all the best on your journey.