the Junerain I always knew and loved, and oh, how she loved herself and knew herself, the seventeen year old inside me the part that feels more like me, that part, I feel when i was diagnosed bipolar and had homeless problems and was fired from fifty-one jobs all as a result of bipolar I feel the very heart of me the seventeen year ols inside of me that always felt like me was banished from existence, that part of me is still in denial..it cannot br true, she is thinking..I had led a very charmed life up to that point!! What can I do to bring the old me and the new me up to date and back into one piece? My therapist says I am living on memories, of all my friends back then, that I do not have too much to live for in the present moment, but there are possibilities that it could change...