i did have a therapist but it was for a limited time id need to wait a year and a half again because it nhs ( uk ) and i cant afford to pay for therapy
by the time i see her the baby will be born and ill still have these thoughts
the babys not even born yet and am scared ill hurt it
my family who pregnant is here at the moment she dont know about my thoughts i dont want to scare her

there only one way for the baby to be safe i must kill myself before the baby is born